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  • #16
    Thank you all for your wisdom and encouragement. I will accept that God is in control of all dad's, mom's and my days. I had prayed 2 things - that God would keep me alive until I had cared for my parents till their homecoming, and that He would take both of them before a major disaster would happen which could cause them to suffer greatly, like an earthquake or WW3 or financial collapse or pandemic. He has answered both of these requests and I am thankful for that. Now I must do the necessary arrangements and seek His will for the rest of my time on this earth ... which seems so empty right now ...

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    • #17
      Dear sister...... HE has a plan for your life. Your immense suffering was not in vain. It wasn't for Job and it isn't for you. When we're in the midst of our trials it seems hard to answer "why me," or "what did I do to deserve this pain, this anguish, this sorrow?"

      But GOD.

      You are so precious to HIM. And HE wants to use you and your test-imony for His glory and His kingdom.

      Do what you must to honor your Mom. Then spend some time resting and renewing your own strength. He loves you so much and so do we dear one!!!

      May Jesus wrap His loving arms around you and carry you thru your grief.

      Mark 13: 22 "For false Christs and false prophets shall rise, and shall shew signs and wonders, to seduce, if it were possible, even the elect."

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        Amen! Intruth, I am in agreement here. Rest in the Lord and do what you need to do. Hugs and prayers your way.

    • #18
      Originally posted by HisDoulas View Post
      Dear sister...... HE has a plan for your life. Your immense suffering was not in vain. It wasn't for Job and it isn't for you. When we're in the midst of our trials it seems hard to answer "why me," or "what did I do to deserve this pain, this anguish, this sorrow?"

      But GOD.

      You are so precious to HIM. And HE wants to use you and your test-imony for His glory and His kingdom.

      Do what you must to honor your Mom. Then spend some time resting and renewing your own strength. He loves you so much and so do we dear one!!!

      May Jesus wrap His loving arms around you and carry you thru your grief.

      Doulas, that was beautifully said. And InTruth, she is correct in her thinking. When I went through my miscarriage, I begged the Lord to make something good come out of it because I couldn't bear the thought that I went through that excruciating pain for no reason. God WILL use this for HIS glory, and as He does so, you will feel a deeper sense of peace and joy in this journey. It's been nearly 22 years since the miscarriage, and the Lord is still using my story to touch others. Each time He does, I can now rejoice. Though it was the hardest thing I had ever faced at that time in my life, I can honestly say it was also one of the best things to happen to me because of how I have seen Him use it for His glory.

      I love you, sister, and I'm still praying for you in this journey.
      Luke 21:36 "Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man."

      We will either dwell in the secret place of the Most High or our flesh will make us want to hide things in secret. -- Nathan Leal

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      • #19
        Still numb, still wondering if I could have done more for mom (e.g. not worrying about costs for caregivers and giving up my job earlier). I know nothing can change this, I'm so sorry I didn't give her the attention she needed because I was trying to sleep and work.

        Please pray for me tomorrow as I walk into the chapel for my private visitation, then the funeral, it will be the first time I see mom since she went home. She was my mother, comforter, best friend and I have to give the eulogy and then drive home on my own. I so much need faith and strength and pray I've organised everything right in her honor. Now I face an empty home, have an empty heart, and see nothing in my future. How can I find Jesus again after all her suffering? How can I have the assurance that she is with Him?

        Thanks for your continued faithful support - I don't know what I would have done without your prayers ...

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        • #20
          Dear sister,

          You did what you thought was best to do, with the information, the resources and the wisdom, that you had at the time. How you endured the sleepless nights (for months on end) and the incompetent (paid) care providers and the demands of your job is nothing short of a miracle. No one can find fault with your sacrificial love for both of your parents for all these years.

          Honey, satan tries to condemn us. On the other hand, Jesus Christ carries us thru, even in the midst, of our darkest of trials. GOD is faithful to His Word. Your Mother received Him and you have received His gift....... His Word assures His children of salvation (in-spite of our painful sufferings and tribulations).

          Our hearts and our prayers will be with you tomorrow dear one. Oh, how I wish we could be there in the flesh to walk with you on this journey. We can not. But rest assured your Savior, Abba Father, will hold you close and give you the strength tomorrow and in the hours, days, and weeks ahead.

          Thank you for allowing us to share your burden.

          Mark 13: 22 "For false Christs and false prophets shall rise, and shall shew signs and wonders, to seduce, if it were possible, even the elect."

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          • #21
            I'm still praying for you. Thank you for the update. I was just coming in here to ask how you were doing, and saw your update. Sister, you did an AWESOME job, in spite of MANY obstacles. Don't allow the enemy to feed his lies to you. You are still in a spiritual battle, even in the midst of such deep grief. You need to use the weapons of warfare the Lord has graciously provided us. Cast down those wicked thoughts and imaginations of condemnation because I promise you -- they are NOT from our Lord.
            Luke 21:36 "Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man."

            We will either dwell in the secret place of the Most High or our flesh will make us want to hide things in secret. -- Nathan Leal

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            • #22
              InTruth, I am praying for you. HisDoulas and Renee both are giving you sound advice. Satan loves to attack us when we are down. Be at peace. I also wish that I could be there with you through this. But Jesus is. Hang in there dear one.
              The Sweet Psalmist

              https://watchmanscry.vbulletin.net/f...sweet-psalmist

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              • #23
                I don't know where to write this, I'm hurting so much for what I didn't do for mom and the terrible things I did. I ask her and Jesus for forgiveness but it won't help her now or bring her back.

                I have sinned terribly by:
                - cooking, sleeping and eating while she was calling me (the psw was there)
                - telling her that I didn't have more money to pay but I still have savings to live on
                - shouting at her to keep quiet during the night because she was waking the neighbours
                - not staying with her to comfort her all the time when she was so fearful of her hallucinations
                - not getting a loan from the bank to pay for her caregivers
                - not knowing how to communicate with her in her last month
                - feeding her at night and giving her water and she swallowed her food the wrong way and died from aspiration
                - not taking her sooner to the hospital
                - not giving her the chance to live through tube feeding
                - not giving up work sooner to care for since since she fell in October

                I wish I could have the past year again to change my selfish actions, I don't deserve God's grace, I don't deserve to have her as mom. She looked after me so well all these years, and I was didn't return her love ... I can't commit suicide, what can I do? Everyone has left me alone after the funeral is over and I can't stop eating and crying ... how can I go back to work now that I'm falling apart?
                Last edited by Intruth; 04-30-2017, 10:19 PM.

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                • #24
                  Oh, sister, you did a great job in spite of how difficult it was. Yes, you are human, and yes, you had times when you could have done better. BUT, you stayed the course. Stop listening to the enemy's lies. He is pouring guilt and condemnation on you!!! Ask the Lord to help you to forgive yourself. He is faithful, and He will help you. And God understands in those moments when you yelled at her, or chose to sleep. You were under such duress and such stress. You had to try to take care of yourself too, so that you'd be able to care for her.

                  I'm still praying for you.
                  Luke 21:36 "Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man."

                  We will either dwell in the secret place of the Most High or our flesh will make us want to hide things in secret. -- Nathan Leal

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                  • #25
                    Dear Sister Intruth ....Our Heavenly Father says in

                    James 5:16 "Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much."

                    You have done this and know that your family here at wcf are praying for you.

                    HE also says in:

                    1John 1: 19 "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."


                    Now, we may mess up but GOD is always faithful to His Word. HE always keeps His Word.

                    Forgive yourself. Jesus has. Go forward sister with the knowledge that HE loves you and wants you to have the victory in this trial.

                    Love you and am praying for you.
                    Mark 13: 22 "For false Christs and false prophets shall rise, and shall shew signs and wonders, to seduce, if it were possible, even the elect."

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                    • #26
                      Praying for you. Listen to HisDoulas, God has forgive you. So forgive yourself. Satan is a lier and don't listen to him. He just wants to torment you. Rest in Jesus and be restored.
                      The Sweet Psalmist

                      https://watchmanscry.vbulletin.net/f...sweet-psalmist

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                      • #27
                        Sister, I got this devotion in my email this morning and thought of you. I think you will find some help, hope, and encouragement from it.

                        “Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit” (Romans 15:13, my italics). According to Paul, when it comes to the subject of hope, the work of the Holy Spirit must be involved. So how do we abound in hope, as Paul prays for us to do? How do we rejoice in hope? And how do we obtain the full assurance of it? A seed of hope is planted at salvation, of course, but there must be a maturing of hope in our walk with Jesus.
                        Luke 21:36 "Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man."

                        We will either dwell in the secret place of the Most High or our flesh will make us want to hide things in secret. -- Nathan Leal

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                        • #28
                          Thank you all for standing by me. Yes, hoping in Jesus is all I have left. I joined a group called Griefshare (www.griefshare.org) at a local church and went for the 1st time last night. Not sure what I wanted to hear, but they kept bringing us back to "God is good' regardless of what happens to us. There's a list of scriptures I need to study and reflect on before the next meeting on Tuesday.

                          I had neck pain, backache the past 2 weeks and pain in my lower calf on the outside the past week (seems like body is falling apart) and am going to the doctor for a blood test on Friday. My emotions tell me i want to go home to the Lord to be with my parents, but another part of me says I must rest and restore my health and my relationship with God. Must be your prayers because I certainly don't want to feel healthy or happy again.

                          Not sure I want to go back to the www.soulcareministry.com that I went to last Thursday (different church). It's focused on inner healing, but the materials are written by one pastor with a Phd in psychology at the church, so I'm somewhat uncomfortable (not sure it's just my spirit not open to the lessons or whether some teaching is a little "off). I don't want to grasp at straws, so if anyone has time to check out the 2 websites to let me know what they think, I'd appreciate it so as not to attend any heretic teachings. Please pray for discernment for me as i reach out to Christian support groups near me - can't have the enemy deceive me while I'm vulnerable - thanks.

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                          • #29
                            Continuing to pray for you day and night, sister.
                            Mark 13: 22 "For false Christs and false prophets shall rise, and shall shew signs and wonders, to seduce, if it were possible, even the elect."

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                            • #30
                              Intruth, I was praying in the car on the way home while my husband was driving. You where speaking of having trouble forgiving yourself. I felt the Lord impressed on me to have you read the last chapter of "The Sweet Psalmist". Has a picture of forgiveness in Heaven. David had gotten Bathsheba pregnant and her husband, Uriah, was sent to battle to be killed then he took her to wife. Look at the picture of forgiveness and I pray that it helps you to forgive yourself. Be at peace, Satan loves to torment. Love you sis. The link is in my signature below my post. Just go the the end and you can read. Be at peace. Here is the last page: https://watchmanscry.vbulletin.net/f...psalmist/page3
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                              The Sweet Psalmist

                              https://watchmanscry.vbulletin.net/f...sweet-psalmist

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